One of the most remarkable parts about this scene for me is that Dean had already been talking on the phone. This wasn’t the first time that Dean had spoken in this conversation. But it was the first time that Dean spoke and sounded more like himself…the first time he spoke and it wasn’t all business.
Cas made the remark about the honor bar and Dean couldn’t help but respond with his snarky “everything” and then Cas smiles like… “Oh there you are, that’s my Dean…that’s the Dean that I fell in love with.” And you can see that love written on his face…see that love written in his sweet smile.
They’ve already been talking to each other but Cas chooses now to ask Dean how he is. Dean, never one to be honest about how he’s actually doing, replies with his standard answer of “okay” or “fine” or “I’m alright” but you can see on his face that he’s not okay. He’s tired. He’s worn out. He’s fighting battles inside and out.
How long has it been since we last saw Dean truly smile? And yet when he asks Cas how he’s doing and Cas responds and is being all Cas-like, we see this small but beautifully real smile from Dean.
These two weary warriors that are battling heaven and hell and their own inner demons, that are tired and down-trodden, and yet they can still smile like this because of each other. And if that isn’t love, then I don’t know what is.
I just love the way Cas manhandles Dean to get a look at the Mark of Cain and the way that Dean just lets him.
rub a dub dub, dean is a sub
Well?! ANSWER THE QUESTION!!
You get the impression in the first movie that it sort of comes easy for Bucky. He’s handsome, charming, good with people…everything Steve isn’t. He’s used to making choices for both of them with Steve reluctantly trailing along sometimes. He cares a HUGE amount for Steve, but it’s still got some egocentrism to it. Bucky is a cut above and he KNOWS it.
Which is why when he crashes and burns after getting captured, he does it in a very obvious way. He’s a mess, off by himself, barely keeping it together. He doesn’t quite know how to deal with the reality of war that he just went through. He’s disheveled and suddenly not smooth with the ladies and LOOKS like he’s been through hell. Reality bites him hard because he had so far to fall and he’s tough, but his whole world has been rocked. The swagger is knocked out of him and he looks like he just wants to curl into a ball. His humor is even self deprecating and dark. Everything he knew about himself has been shattered and it no longer comes easy and no one cares that he was handsome or charming. Even Steve has changed on him and it’s a lot to process.
So he goes through a third phase. That of the Bucky that gets himself back together to help Steve. Because if there’s one central theme in his world, it’s that Steve needs him. So he loses the cocky head tilt and self assured manner and forges himself into a very efficient soldier. One capable of keeping up with Steve. One who is coldly calculating and professional. He still jokes, but it’s a professional one then back to business. He’s serious and somber and very practically put together.
Even before Winter Soldier, if we want to get technical, Bucky Barnes had already changed who Bucky Barnes was. Life had already broken him into a different man.
This is the best birthday present I have ever had.
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